how to breathe.

What do you do when the words won’t come? When everything feels wrong and sounds wrong? When your insides are in total chaos?

First, you go to a quiet place. Sprawl out on a yoga mat. Put earbuds in so that it’s just you and the sounds you want to hear. Rainy Mood is good. Sometimes, you need to hear a storm to calm the one raging inside of you. You can almost smell the rain.

You open your journal, and you write one word. Maybe even just the date. Anything to get the ink flowing, to awaken your brain. Remind it how good it feels when the pen is moving fluidly across the page.

You remember how words work. You start using them, and the tangle inside of you slowly begins to unfurl. You remember how to move again. How to be. Everyone says you have such beautiful handwriting, and even now, when the words are practically hurling themselves onto the page, you admire your cursive loops and flicks.

Four handwritten pages later, you close the book. You close your eyes.You remember how to breathe. Inhale. Exhale.

[sic]

 

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